I saw a robin today...

I should start taking more serious pictures of my life. Not like the silly instagram ones...like pictures of the sky and the robin that I saw in the tree outside of my apartment complex. I saw so many beautiful things today and all I have is memories so I guess I will keep them close.

Seeing that robin was a lovely thing really. It was a glimmer of hope for spring. It spread its wings, startled at my appearance on the walk way. And it flapped its way to a brambly tree. I stood there and stared at it for a brief moment. I looked at it's yellow beak and it's red belly all puffed up and ruffled. It didn't chirp or anything but I imagined that it would and the primary song popped into my head.

"Whenever I hear the song of a bird
Or look at the blue, blue sky,
Whenever I feel the rain on my face
Or the wind as it rushes by,
Whenever I touch a velvet rose
Or walk by a lilac tree,
I’m glad that I live in this beautiful world
Heav’nly Father created for me.

He gave me my eyes that I might see
The color of butterfly wings.
He gave me my ears that I might hear
The magical sound of things.
He gave me my life, my mind, my heart:
I thank him rev’rently
For all his creations, of which I’m a part.
Yes, I know Heav’nly Father loves me."

I felt very happy walking up the stairs to my apartment. And I felt happy when I thought of the homework I had to do. That never happens. I felt good because this weekend wasn't a weekend for warm and fuzzies. It was a weekend of finding out you've lost the trust of a close friend and realizing that people move on without you. It was a pity party weekend and I seemed to be content with my current situation.

I wasn't realizing "the brutal circumstances of my current situation."(Stake Conference, baby) I wasn't improving or trying to change things that I needed to. I kept on painting a silver lining or putting a sugar coat over the things in my life that I wasn't enjoying. Well today changed that. I'm not saying the robin did...there are many factors really.

This morning I prayed out loud. I talked to God. Then I read my scriptures, I never do that in the morning. And I read about Lachoneus and his dedication to fortify his city from the Gadianton Robbers. I realized I had to fortify myself from the adversary. The Lord was on my side, I had to act. I realized that it was MY choice to be happy. It IS MY CHOICE to be myself. So I'm going to be me. Because that's who I want to be.

So I'm thankful for that robin, and Lachoneus, and praying vocally, I'm grateful for 49 degree weather, and I'm grateful for every single thing in my life...even losing the trust of a friend, because now I get to work harder to be better...and I want to be better.