Thursday Thoughts // A Break From Regular Scheduled Programming

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I'm sorry about the lack of posts recently. I'm not going through anything severe. I'm not not writing for any specific reason. My writing well was just dried up this week and I set my focus on other things.

However, I did want to share a few thoughts with you today.

Side Note: Style Profile. Tomorrow. Be there. It will be absolutely lovely.

Tyler and I are in this Accounting class together. I have to take it for Public Relations and Tyler needs to take it for his business minor. This class is kicking out butt. I can't say it in any other way. It's a right forceful kick in the ass. (Sorry mom!) It brings out the worst in Tyler and I because we just don't get it and after one day of endless complaining, Tyler, in his glorious wisdom, stopped me mid-sentence and said this:

"This is a humbling experience for us, because we're not good at it and I think we are so used to being good at what we do."

And without sounding like I'm boasting about our abilities, I said, "I completely agree with you."

And I was overwhelmed with the Love of God. I was being humbled. My pride was being chipped away because I like to think that I'm good at a lot of things. I like to think that I've had a successful college career without too many failures, but here was Tyler telling me that I might fail this class, and it will be okay, because I need to experience this.

So we made a commitment to be better, and we've already made mistakes, but we both said that we would say sorry every time we made a mistake, and it's working out. Tonight we have more accounting homework so we'll have to wait and see how we go from there.

Well after we stopped complaining I felt a weight lift off of me. I felt like I was able to go throughout my day without this nasty negative burden on my shoulders and on the tip of my tongue.

I was able to get things done.

And then good things happened. Really good things happened.

Tyler got an internship this Summer in Irvine, CA with Sports 1 Marketing. This is a big deal. Tyler's dream has always been to work in the sports industry and this is his foot in the door. I couldn't be more proud of him. Tears well up in my eyes to think that one of his dreams is a reality. After being discouraged for so long, something worked out for him.

Something worked out for me too. I was worrying myself sick about this press conference I had to do for a class. Turns out, my group did the best and we got 10 extra points which is huge in PR program. Extra credit is a measly one point half of the time. This was right after Tyler found out about his internship.

So I texted him telling him the news and he sent this text back to me (in all his wisdom, of course):

"Good things are happening AROUND accounting! Which is Heavenly Father saying, "You guys are still smart and valuable, I'm just reminding you what you are actually good at."

I laughed and then shed a tear or two because he was so right.

I may not be good at everything, and that is TOTALLY COMPLETELY INCREDIBLY OKAY! It just is. You won't be perfect at all things. You could never be. Our psychological well being would be the pits if we forced ourselves to be perfect all the time. So right now I will take what I can get, and I will keep trying, because you can't give up. You have to keep going. Don't you quit, because you may not get the A but you will be able to say you overcame something hard and you realized that you have strength in other things. That's beautiful.

So don't quit. Keep going. Fail a little and glory in your success because you can do it.

Saturday Stuff // Change

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So as you all know, I normally don't write on Saturdays, but today I just felt like I needed to write. I needed to let some feelings out. And those feelings are about change. For a few years now, I've watched YouTube videos. I have watched people's lives on YouTube. Yeah, I know. I'm one of those people. And I've really enjoyed it. Well recently, one of my favorites YouTubers, Ingrid, posted this video about her January Favorites, but it wasn't like any other favorites where she only talked about makeup, music, and clothes. This one was about change. It was about life and the transitions we go through when it comes down to it. At the end of her video she asked a question to her viewers. She asked what we think change is. Is it something that we should seek out or is it something that we should let run its course, and it really brought my thoughts in a whirl because I'm always thinking about change. I am. Change is all around me. Change is real. Change is good. Change is bad. Change is ever-evolving. Change is unexpected and change is expected all at the same time.

So do I seek after it? Or do I let it happen when it needs to and just like Ingrid, I think it's all in the middle. Change is the middle man. The liaison. The pain. The joy. The new beginning. Change can be your best friend or it can be the knife driven through your back.

In my life, there have been times where all I've done is seek out change. I've yearned for it. I've desired change so deeply that it has brought the saltiest of tears to my eyes and the strongest of anguish. And of course there was an opposite. There have been times where I've pushed any change away. I've knashed my teeth at it. I've tried to strike it away. And oh yes...

Oh yes there have been times where I've just accepted it, where I have greeted it like an old friend that has come around again.

I think we all need change. It's a must in life. She also mentioned reflection. Yes, reflection. I hate it and love it all at the same time. Reflection makes me vulnerable because it makes me realize where I fall short, but it also tells me where I've succeeded and where I'm going and who I'm becoming. Thank goodness for reflection. Change brings about reflection. So thank goodness for change too. Thank goodness for something that makes me think. Thank goodness for change that makes me want to be better.

Yeah, I know...sometimes change is the worst. Sometimes our bodies change in ways we don't want them to. Sometimes change rips our heart out. Sometimes it leaves us worn out, but I know that the sun rises the next day and that things work out. They really do.

So if there is a change you want to make or see  in your life, GO MAKE IT HAPPEN! Go get that change. Go embrace it!

And if there is a change happening right now in your life that's just getting the best of you, that's making you think that you're not good enough, or that's dimming your glorious and everlasting light, grab it by the horns and turn it. Turn it for your own good. Look it right in the eye and say, "You're not conquering me today, there is no way. Today you are MINE!" Then conquer it!

If you need the extra strength, let me be that strength. Let me be your shoulder. I will be that.

Hello Change, I'm ready for you.

Terrific Tuesday // Yes, you can.

1 //  I am trying to gain wisdom. 

2 // This is how I want my life to be. I want it to be simple but significant and that is important to me. 

3 // I need Newport Beach right now. I need it so much right now. 

4 // Yes, you can. You really can. Don't ever say that you can't. 

5 // Good energy. That's what we need. 

+ s t a y // g o l d

p.s. sorry if my words aren't sounding inspired. i'm feeling under the weather. 

Terrific Tuesday // Some words.

1 // I have found this to be so true. I hope that I can always see the beauty in others. I am striving to work on that each and every day. I used to be surrounded by people who always saw the negative in others, they always had something negative to say about someone who was different than they were. Sometimes, I would play along...and it hurts my heart that I would do that. I am going to try my hardest to be the kindest, and even if someone annoys me or makes me feel disgruntled...I am going to try to be patient and see them in the most beautiful ways.

2 // Go ahead. Do it.

3 // Yes, and yes. This is truer than true. Negative people are not important and they never will be.

+ h a p p y // t u e s d a y 

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+ s t a y // g o l d 

Terrific Tuesday // Sweet Motivation

Here are some pretty words to get you through the week. 

1 // Do as Queen E (Ellen) does. Dance it out. 

2 // Have time for life. Stop rushing. 

3 // Yep. That's all. 

4 // Rejoice!

5 // Yes, you are. Don't you ever forget it!

6 // Amen, Drew Barrymore, amen. Let's choose to be happy. Let's choose to be pretty. 

7 // When you feel down on yourself just remember that you are actually killing it. Yeah, you pretty much rock at life. 

8 // Thomas Edison has a point you know. Never give up. 

9 // When Abraham Lincoln tells you to make up your mind, you better make up your mind! 

10 // Another swear...but I'm not even sorry, because why the hell not? 

+ s t a y // h a p p y 

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+ s t a y // g o l d