A modest proposal.

Confession time.

Guys. I don't like proposal videos. I used to be really into them. You know, the whole Bruno Mars, Disney, lip syncing hoohah doodads. I loved them, they made me cry yadda yadda yadda...until...I got engaged. And it was the most simple and beautiful and perfect thing ever. And there was no Bruno Mars, no jumbo tron, no flash mob, no sky divers, no band playing, no fireworks. And guess what? I was incredibly happy about it. And then I got really disappointed. Disappointed that girls started posting these videos everywhere with captions saying, "Take a lesson boys, learn from this, this is the only way a girl should be asked, if a boy doesn't ask me this way I'll say no."

That's when my face met my palm and I began to question the humanity and goodness of girls these days.

Why do boys have to spend a ton of money and a ton of time after he's spent A WHOLE BUTT LOAD OF MONEY ON THAT SHINY BAUBLE THAT WILL BE ON YOUR HAND FOREVER!?! Why?

How dare you ask for anything more! Okay...I might be getting a little too heated about it. All the caps and stuff, but really. I know. Everyone deserves the proposal they want and guys actually want to do something big and elaborate, but when Tyler asked me what I wanted as a proposal...I just sat in silence. I couldn't think of anything because I didn't expect anything. I mean, I was already getting a ring. I was already getting to be with him forever! I mean what more could I want? Why did there have to be a standard of marriage proposals? Why was there an expectation?

I'm not trying to say that my proposal was the best and all the elaborate ones are trash...I'm just saying that girls...girls shouldn't expect the fireworks, and the marching bands, and the lip syncing. They shouldn't require it anyway. Truth is...it's NOT THAT IMPORTANT. In fact, the proposal is the least important part. Let's get real.

So here's what I want to know. If you are engaged or married, how did your fiancee/husband propose to you? Were you expecting something crazy and elaborate? Was it simple and did you absolutely love it? Do you think that girls should expect elaborate and showy proposals? Voice off and please, please don't hate me.

I'm out.

Stay gold.

P.S. I went back and read this and I realize that it could make people who had elaborate proposals feel bad. I don't think they are...I'm complaining more about the girls who actually EXPECT a huge proposal. That's all. Take it as you will.

When people tell you you're not good enough...

Or when they say things about you that hurt your feelings. When they tell you to change. When they try to tell you what you do or do not deserve. When they spread rumors about you. When that guy doesn't like you because you're not "his type." When you don't fit in because your hair isn't right or you don't wear the right brand of clothes, or you can't play a certain sport. When you feel like everything is falling apart and no one is on your side...

Look at yourself in the mirror and say, NO I am not those things that you say about me. I am fine just the way I am. I don't need to change for you or for anyone else. I am my own person and that's how I want it to be. No, I do deserve this, I deserve it more than anyone because I've worked hard for this and I have shed many tears over it and I have put my whole heart and soul into it. You don't know me, and you haven't even tried to get to know me so stop spreading those lies about me. Just stop. And so what if I'm not your type!? What are types anyway? Someday I will find a guy that will make my heart stop, who will put neverending butterflies in my stomach, who will brush the hair out of my face when I look exceptionally disheveled. Who will talk to me when I'm upset who will love me no matter what. Who won't care about types. And you know what I like my hair this way and I'll wear the clothes I want to wear and sports don't even matter in the long run. And finally, you tell the world that you will conquer it. That you will be happy and that the world is on your side. And that you love life and life will love you back and you can do anything good.

That's what you say to the faces of the people that tell you you're not good enough. Because you are good. You are gooder than good. You are amazing. You are stardust. You are golden. That is who you are and don't let anyone...EVER get you down because you are so worth it.

That's all.

Monday Musings: Mini rant and Back to Happy Valley

First of all, why was Adele not in the closing ceremonies? I know she's pregnant and all, but they had Jessie J screaming and yodeling her lungs out while Adele could have been belting out some lovely tunes with her far better voice. Come on London.

Second of all, really Facebook you're announcing engagements now?

Third of all, and what I want to talk about most of all is the fact that this is my last week before I move back down to Happy Valley for school. This week is finally here. I remember last year when my last week finally came to be. I was an emotional mess. Heck I was an emotional, anxious mess all of last summer. Really though, I can't believe this is my last week. I haven't even thought about buying my books, moving in, packing all of my closet into bins, what I'm going to eat, the homework. It hasn't all settled in yet. I don't think I'm afraid. I don't think I'm not ready. I think I am ready. I want to be back at school, but I don't want to adjust, but hey change is inevitable. I need to adjust. I need to start being an independent college student again. It's time to meet new people, make new friends, get used to a new ward. Get used to everything. It really is exciting. Nervewracking, but very exciting. I just need to remember who I am. I can't lose myself when I'm at school. I feel like that happened my Freshman year. I compared myself to everybody. I let my anxiety, OCD, and stress get the best of me. That happens sometimes, but too often last year. This year is going to be better than last. I know it's easier said than done, but really I'm going to try my best to make this year a really awesome one. I am going to be my best self. I'm going to be the REAL Dani. It is time to grow up again, start anew, have some fun, and work hard. Bring it on.

So here's to the last week.  Here's to another Monday Musing. And here's to Imagine Dragons.

Monday Musing

It's Monday! The weekend is over and it's time for a new week and a new musing. Here is just a blabber video of my thoughts. It's a rant. It was supposed to be for Facebook but I thought it did justice towards what I have been musing about. We should love what we do. We should do what we love. We should have ambitions and goals. We should NOT put someone down for doing what they love to do. Worry about your own goals and who you are. Stay true. Be you. Woo HOO! Sometimes I get ranty but hey it happens. What have you been reflecting on today? What is on your mind? Comment below! See you tomorrow for TERRIFIC TUESDAY!

p.s. sorry I'm so fidgety in this video. I have zero video etiquette.